My thoughts are starts I cannot fathom into constellations
Thursday, October 3, 2013 @ 3:46 AM
I've actually been having a pretty good holiday even though I imagined myself sleeping more and studying way more. But I think it's still good to take a break from all that academic stuff and catch up with friends. Although I wish I have been sleeping more.
So on Tuesday night, Claudia convinced Jess and I to come to Surrender and Nguyen accompanied us to. In the beginning, it really wasn't what I was expecting. It had a large Aboriginal emphasis which was not what was advertised in the description. Albeit, it was really eye opening to listen about the stolen generation and the impacts and hardships that they faced as Christians. I think the biggest message I took home was:
Do unto others what you would have them do to you. This can be taken into - love others as you want to be loved. This removes the stigma/notion of loving someone only for what they give you or provide you with, but instead, loving someone without boundary. Love as how you want to be loved.Anyways, afterwards, Nguyen suggested we try out A Salt and Battery on Hawken Drive. Such a law student, that play on words - assault and battery. But when we arrived, it was closed! So instead, we decided to eat at La Porchetta. As we were standing outside and looking at the menu, the waitress emerged and informed us that it's cheaper to order takeaway. So obviously, we got takeaway #bargain. We decided to go to Mt. Cootha and eat our takeaway. The view is so breathtaking, especially at night. We went around 10pm, so there were sooo many couples making out. But it was just really good sitting down and chilling with our takeaways.
Today, it was sister day! Firstly, we went to Garden City to go to our respective phone companies and ask if we could switch companies and retain our original number (which we can, yay). We later purchased a Cha Time, and I got my usual whereas she wanted to try something new so she got the Brown Rice tea with no sugar. IT TASTED SO DISGUSTING HAHA. We then drove to Carindale and had lunch at Wagamama. It was quite nice! I ordered the pork cracking chicken miso udon, and my sister ordered the soba teriyaki salmon, and we both shared a side order of 5 gyozas.
Our mains came out at the same time, which was great (and expected). But the gyozas came out so late.. we'd actually thought that they'd forgotten about it.
I let my sister have it. She deserves it more than I do. (And I guess, because she's paying). Also visited Anna at her new job!!
And I finished reading John Green's The Fault In Our Stars. I think I cried throughout the book. It actually seems so realistic - it wasn't sugar coated. It showed true human nature in its entirety and really wasn't a happily ever after book where they make pixie dust and poop out rainbows. It was a real book, which I found it even the more sadder. And by real, I mean not as in non-fiction, but real as in r3aL!
“My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.”
“What a slut time is. She screws everybody.”
“There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful.”
“Oh, I wouldn't mind, Hazel Grace. It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.”
“Without pain, how could we know joy?' This is an old argument in the field of thinking about suffering and its stupidity and lack of sophistication could be plumbed for centuries but suffice it to say that the existence of broccoli does not, in any way, affect the taste of chocolate.”
“I hated hurting him. Most of the time, I could forget about it, but the inexorable truth is this: They might be glad to have me around, but I was the alpha and the omega of my parents' suffering.”
“But I believe in true love, you know? I don't believe that everybody gets to keep their eyes or not get sick or whatever, but everybody should have true love, and it should last at least as long as your life does.”
“I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.”
“But I will say this: When the scientists of the future show up at my house with robot eyes and they tell me to try them on, I will tell the scientists to screw off, because I do not want to see a world without him.”
“What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.”
“I missed the future. Obviously I knew even before his recurrence that I'd never grow old with Augustus Waters. But thinking about Lidewij and her boyfriend, I felt robbed. I would probably never again see the ocean from thirty thousand feet above, so far up that you can't make out the waves or any boats, so that the ocean is a great and endless monolith. I could imagine it. I could remember it. But I couldn't see it again, and it occurred to me that the voracious ambition of humans is never sated by dreams coming true, because there is always the thought that everything might be done better and again.”